“This is just one hump, one hurdle. But I’ve come too far to let the weight of negative thoughts hold me down.”
The Breakdown (Literally & Mentally)
My car’s been out of commission for a while now. And honestly, I’m frustrated—not just at the situation, but at myself. I ignored the small repairs when they first came up. I let my ex and my mom talk me into taking it to random mechanics or going the cheaper route, even though deep down, I knew better. I should’ve taken it to a professional from the jump.
Now I’m looking at nearly $2,000 in repairs. Shade tree mechanics are a blessing in some communities, no doubt. But in my case, it’s cost me more than it saved. From broken windows to a faulty grounding wire—this is just another bump in the road on this journey of starting over. And it’s heavy. It’s expensive. It’s frustrating for my mom and sister to keep running me back and forth.
Why I Stay Quiet
I only work two weeks out of the month—7 days on, 7 days off—so how am I supposed to save for a new place, pay off bills, and still provide for my son and myself? I don’t feel like I can vent to everyone in my circle. They’ve got their own battles, and I don’t want to add to their load. So I keep a lot of it bottled up.
Why I’m Writing Anyway
But this—this blog—is why I started writing. It’s my release. It’s me choosing to say out loud what I’ve been holding in. It’s not always easy sharing this publicly, but I’m rising to the occasion. I’m allowing myself to feel it all—to sit with the frustration, the guilt, the overwhelm—so I can move through it and get back to what I can control.
What I Can Control
And what I can control? My thoughts. My actions. My mindset. This is just one hump, one hurdle. But I’ve come too far to let the weight of negative thoughts hold me down. I’m not breaking—I’m building. Even now.
What’s one thing you’ve been holding in that you need to release—just for you?
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What’s been your hardest “keep going anyway” moment lately? Let’s talk about it.
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