“If this is what healing feels like… I’m ready for more.”
I went on a 12-minute and 45-second rant on the way home from—well, honestly—a crash out. That’s the best way I can describe it.
It was heavy. Raw. Unfiltered.
Full of self-doubt.
Jealousy.
Blame.
Pressure.
Emotion.
Overthinking.
All within 12 minutes and 45 seconds.
And I complained.
Yes—I complained.
I cried. I vented. I let it out.
But here’s the part I’m proud of:
I didn’t unload on my son.
I didn’t snap at my mom.
I didn’t project it onto my coworkers or loved ones.
I gave myself 12 minutes and 45 seconds to release months of silent weight.
I gave myself permission to process—not perform.
✨ The Shift
Something changed after that.
After the tears, the release, the silence—I had a small chance encounter. A moment that reminded me:
My blessings are still in front of me.
Even when my mind tells me I’m drowning, I’m still here. Still worthy. Still growing.
I realized I’ve been asking other people to be open and vulnerable with me…
But hadn’t given myself that same grace.
🌱 A Moment of Self-Compassion
I’ve been carrying so many bags:
Old wounds.
Unspoken emotions.
Unprocessed trauma.
And in that 12-minute and 45-second moment, I unpacked one.
Just one.
But it was enough to make me feel like maybe, just maybe…
This is what healing feels like.
This is what choosing myself looks like.
This is what growth sounds like when it’s not cute or Instagram-ready.
🌟 And Then I Asked Myself…
Is this truly what healing feels like?
Like… I know I have a whole bunch more growing and healing to do.
But is this one of those moments where that chapter is closed?
Or like—I’ve finally unpacked that bag? One of my many bags of doubt, different instances, different situations, different encounters, different feelings…
Ones I haven’t even begun to touch.
Is this what that feels like?
Because if it is—
If holding myself accountable…
If making conscious decisions and choices…
If being empathetic and putting myself in someone else’s shoes—
truly putting myself in their shoes—
If this is what that feels like?
Then I’m ready for the next bag.
I’m ready to unload and unpack this next chapter of healing and growing.
💬 If You’re Still Here…
Thank you.
For letting me share this with you.
Thank you for letting me be as open… and accepting me, as me.
Authentically Aries.
Before you close this tab…
Take a moment to sit with yourself.
Ask yourself:
- What am I holding onto that I haven’t given myself space to feel?
- When was the last time I let myself crash—without shame?
- Am I showing myself the same compassion I expect from others?
Journal Prompt:
If you had 12 minutes and 45 seconds to release whatever you’ve been carrying… what would you say?
You don’t need to have the perfect words.
You just need the courage to be honest—with yourself first.
And when you’re ready, come back.
We’ll unpack the next chapter together.
TheAbundantAries 